But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me...

So today I had the plan (I even scheduled it) to call this mysterious man at 8:48pm. The plan fell through. Not because I didn't have the chance, but because given the chance I didn't want to do this thing all over again. I know the cycle well enough by now and I'm bored with it. Yeah, I may get butterflies at first. Give it a week and they are gone or better yet replaced with some new hobby I've acquired.

I hate the fact that I'm starting to look at "love" as some sort of game. I was never really good at games except for street fighter, uno, or the game of life. Okay, so maybe I was a little bit good.

I think I'll call him tomorrow. As long as I expect the worst I can't really lose because I never had anything to gain. Don't worry frenemies, this isn't me being depressed, this is just me being skeptical over time I can't afford to lose.

"I think I'm a little bit in love with you, but only if you're a little bit in love with me" - Lykke Li

-aileen awesome