Social Experiment #3

This social gets feedback on whether I'm making it hard for the dude to even approach me. AKA are my standards way too high for anything to ever happen.

Impossible or Possible: Comments/emoticons/suggestions please Share

not looking for this.

Now let me know if my wants are possible or crazy. Anything I should drop? Bear in mind you are helping with research on an amazing social experiment. All should be free to comment even if I didn't tag you in the note.

Looking for:

- Intelligence. *what a turn* Preferably a combination of book and street smarts. Someone willing to correct my speech/grammar in public is a plus. I would also like to be able to learn new things from said person, even if they are boring topics.

- A sense of Humor. I do not want someone who is funnier than me because that in itself is humanly impossible. Instead, I would like someone who finds my sense of humor agreeable by chiming in with his laughter. Not at me of course.

-Attraction. True I admit to liking guys that have been given the "no-go" by friends but either way there needs to be an attraction, meaning that I need to find you attractive. And to be that you need to be hygienic, have good looking teeth, tall (I'm 5'9" so taller than that), and puny looking without the puny. Light colored eyes are and will always be the death of me.

-Have a Job. Or at least do something with yourself. And no, drug-dealing is not a job.

-Flies without baggage. Someone emotionally free from previous relationship and mental illnesses. I am not going to school to become a therapist.

-Has sisters. I find guys who have sisters can at times be more sympathetic and tend to lend their listening ears while still being a guy.

-Has cajones. I'm tired of guys that can't stand their own and guys who get walked all over. So not attractive. In fact not having cajones completely puts them in the friend zone forever. Being aggressive is key here.

-Secure with himself. Not insecure. I would like to avoid guys that tend to say "what are you even doing with me? You're so fill-in-the-blank" Pretty soon it will have me thinking, "what am I doing with you, I'm too fill-in-the-blank for you".

-Spontaneous. I need someone to be crazy with me and who wont worry about what's going to happen next. Take each day as it comes without a dull moment. Excluding lazy Sundays.

-Motivated/Not Lazy. Someone who is doing something with his life is better than someone who is doing nothing with his life. Granted he can go out and become party monster (I do it occasionally), but once he taps out of that party-mode I would like him to do something with himself. Lazy Sundays are excluded once again.

-Likes small blind dogs. Self-explanatory.

***************

Okay so is this do-able or is this list impossible?

Cartoon Face

I will never be able to escape this company. This is my demand for free clothes ya hear!

I want the V Gloria Body suit please in Hot Pink!!!!

Having a horrendous habit of reading self-help books for mere pleasure, my pleasure, brings me across atrocious "help" within those binded pages. It makes me wonder how the fuck these books even got published. At times I'm glad someone's worse off than me, but can no longer read on. Okay I lied. I Stop for a day and schlep through it the next day thanks to my other habit of needing to finish everything started.

I swear these habits will be the death of me.

Well here's the excerpt that made me choke on the F line way back in September 2009.

"The Recommended Daily Allowance of Hugs:

Four hugs are needed every day for basic sustenance.

Eight hugs are necessary to stay in good shape.

Twelve will help you grow as a loving being.

Fifteen help strengthen our bodies' defense mechanisms.

Twenty guarantee happiness.

Twenty-five will conquer any negative emotion.

Thirty will make you glow.

Forty will ensure success in everything you do."

The Love Diet - Mabel Iam

Two Weeks of Hip Hop

Even photographers have noted how not in touch I am with my femme side. They would joke around: can you even walk in heels? The answer is yes I can and with a cheeky attitude.

It's going to be one of those posts where nothing makes sense, but you will read on and try to make something out of it. Well when you do send me an e-mail. Photos of me are stolen from a myspace I forget I still have. Enjoy, it's going to be long.

Film cameras may be a thing of the past, but they fascinate me. Different lenses, different colors, different exposures. I prefer being behind the lens and capturing people in motion. Things have become to pose-y after fbomb's tagging of people.

Obsession with light colored eyes. No idea where that came from. Oh wait, I do. His name was Ariel. Beautiful Puerto Rican boy who stole a kiss and my heart. Caramel skin and bright green eyes. He was never scared of the adults, and so we had an eventful summer jumping over wire gates. He was 9 and I was 7.5. I thought for sure we would get a rental together when old enough. Then he moved to Florida.

2009 - The first winter I'm wearing pants and clothing my size. I think a bit of me got lost at some CMJ party earlier this year. I blame the free PBR.

Not the biggest fan of sharing, or being #2 for that matter. Too much self love, so I tend to drop people from my "romantically interested" to my "only friends" column. Since we're on the subject, just because I am laid back and considered a bro's kind of girl I do not enjoy hearing about other girls. Unless she's your mom.

Late late late birthday gifts. They're never cheap either. Even trade I say.

I am more attracted to the guy who compliments me on anything other than my features. For example: Someone who thinks/says I'm funny or smart is more likely to pull off my hello kitty panties than the guy who says/thinks I am gorgeous. Hello, I make $$$ by modeling and I hear it all the time. Although the guy who says I have a cute smirk has an equal chance with the panties.

I like to dance to really loud music in my room with the blinds up. Naked. One day I'll party it up at a nudist colony. Baby steps first, topless at a topless beach.

Tan lines. I look better with them. 2010 is the year my tanning habit will consume me. I'll make sure of it and the lucky pinga I'm seeing will be glad of it.

Julian Casablanca on the 14th of January. His face makes my heart melt. I have yet to buy the album but will do so soon. I'm not up for DL-ing. Reason being: If I do run into him backstage *fingers crossed* I want to make sure he has something to sign other than my tits.

The dream stops here. No more talks about skateboarding or skate vid editing. Sorry baby Aileen but it's ruining your chances of ever dating. Or do I have to tally off the guys you've mention these dreams to and how horribly things have ended. Please stop being you for once.

If and when I get the balls and cash to alter my body, I would most likely get a nose job. Growing up without a nose bridge was very traumatic for me due to bullies. This my body dysmorphia.

I find it weird that I remind complete strangers of their 3 month old niece or 18 year old cousin. I find it even weirder when they pull out photographs so they can state their case. Sometimes I do look like their fill in the blank.

I can't really have a full blown orgasm unless I really like the guy. It's weird how I need to feel intimate with someone before that very intimate thing happens. Sucks to be me.

No matter how many times an intervention is staged I will continue to like/see the asshole. Sorry but it's attractive when a guy is not intimidated by me and is free to be himself. It's even more I-want-to-have-sex-with-you-right-on-this-table-attractive when he does something about the guy who is hitting on me in his presence. Like Ali G says "RESPECT!"

If it wasn't for Marc Jacobs I would have a lot more money right now. Owning Fake MJ is tacky and not for me. P.s. I curse the fag-hag who stole my MJ wallet from me @Royal Oak. Cunt.

Drunk talk is the worst sort of talk I do. I expose too much of my dermis and my thoughts. Then the next day I have to clear up all this shet I blabbered about myself aka bad impression of me left in someone's mind. It's embarrassing really.

"There's a pretty young thing in front of you. And she's real pretty and real into you, and then she's sleepin' inside of you." Rilo Kiley - Portions for Foxes

Sometimes I can be very femme. This normally coincides with times I am having lots of great sex or going out to dance. P.s. I also have a column for guys I have great physical chemistry with and nothing more. I appreciate their bodies the way they appreciate mine. TLC.

Accepted the fact today that I am on the cute side of the spectrum. And it's great.

"Why am I dealing with this feeling?

I'm maxed out like a credit card.

I'll continue to be my worst enemy.

It's easy, but it seems so hard.

You're near but you seem so far.

I am wasted, but I'm ready.

I'm running as fast as I can."

Ben Kweller - Wasted and Ready