Every time he leaves, I swear to you, something goes horribly wrong in my life. Besides the obvious, like me missing him and thinking about what's he's doing, legit stuff really does go wrong.
Today I checked my savings and BAM. Like 75% of my savings have been used up, with the majority of it going towards commuting to the city and transportation. The rest gets spent on food but that's a necessity. I can't keep these expenses going unless going broke becomes ok with me. It'll never be ok with me which is why I developed a game plan to get shit straightened out.
Well, that game plan failed within sixteen minutes of being developed. My parents can't afford to help me and it shouldn't be on their shoulders either, I'm twenty-four with a job. So it's time to go back to Ma's, make myself super comfortable on her couch and just save, save, save.
AND THEN I will for sure find my bottom off the couch and somewhere rightfully mine. Somewhere I can finally settle and call my home. No more of this shifting from home to home stuff. Just one location with all my things and the boyfriend waiting in the bedroom.
FUCK, this really sucks. This is my third time moving back home.
Hmm... I wonder what he's doing right now. Sad Aileen until Sunday :(
Lay with me, I'll lay with you
We'll do the things that lovers do
Put the stars in our eyes
And with heart-shaped bruises
And late-night kisses divine
The Maccabees///Toothpaste Kisses